Tell u one thing sincerely, the current love of my life who says that she's faithful to me and that she will love me as long as I want her in my life (her words) is perhaps the sweetest n most beautiful woman I've ever known...just narrowed the gap in our age differences yesterday on her birthday, down to 50 years exactly. Either she's crazy or fate is rewarding me for a lifetime of good deeds! Course love like all things has a flip side, as I wade through the litany of potential clinical solutions for my performance failure...which kills me emotionally as one can imagine though she reminds me routinely that it doesn't affect her feelings for me. I adore her and thank the Lord daily, though every single person I know call me outright stupid bc female youth n beauty ain't cheap these days: and my bestest long time pal says the Devil rather than the Lord brought her to me. Damn wish I knew..m